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This weeks theme…animals.

Posted by Dawn on July 28, 2006

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a wedding, a stormy cookout and a snake

Posted by Dawn on July 24, 2006

I don’t usually cry or get emotional at weddings, but Saturday it almost got to me.  I did get a little teary eyes a few times.

 The bride was absolutely beautiful.  Her wedding party was amazing, the groom’s eyes just sparkled, the flower girl was adorable, and the ringer bearer (my nephew Hunter) was bribed to be good.

I remember when the groom was born.  It was great seeing his older brother and his sister again.  His mom and dad divorced when they were younger, but the groom still went to church in Utica.  His older brother and younger sister have moved out of state so it was great seeing them again.

I remember when the bride and groom started dating.  They were perfect for each other and so cute together so it was awesome to be a part of their day.  I got there around 8:00 to help take “fun” pictures and to help Jenn with Hunter.  We played cars and trucks all day.  My nephew is so spoiled on my way in I talk to him and he’s like what you bringing me Aunt Dawn.  Yikes so we made a deal.  If he’s good during the wedding I buy him a toy.  Wanna guess how many people made the same deal with him???  It was like Christmas for that kid.  He’s got a toy car from me, his mom and dad got him a toy truck and boat, my mom and dad are letting him pick something out, his other grandparents got him a walkie talkie, the bride got him toys, the groom has promised to take him on a ride in the fire truck, the grooms dad is also taking him for a ride in the fire truck and he gets to push the horn.

So the wedding was great, beautiful, and it was an all around great day!  And the rain held off until after the reception!

So speaking of rain…anytime we have a cookout it rains.  We still had a good turn out for the cookout.  Patt loved his cake and enjoyed his birthday weekend.  The fun came when some friends came in and told him there was a snake in the carport.  Well, Patt’s still a kid and couldn’t wait to play with the snake.  He even brought that thing into my house!  It’s harmless it’s just a grass snake.  Hence the key word, it’s a snake!!!  There’s no such thing in my mind as a harmless snake!  So they took it out and released it in the field in the backyard.

Overall really great weekend, no major fighting just a lot fun!!!

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Change my mind

Posted by Dawn on July 13, 2006

Ok I had done my 13 Thursday but took it off.  I’m not in the best of moods and shouldn’t be writing today…….

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Pics from vacation

Posted by Dawn on July 11, 2006

 It’s been two weeks since vacation and I’m just now posting picutres.  It’s been busy since we got back and so much going on.  I have a cousin that’s leaving Friday to go to Destin and I’m like take me with you please.  I just loved Destin!!!

Above is my favorite picture. Patt was looking for shells and I love how his foot prints go into the water.

Above, a cute fellow we meet in Destin.

Ok a picutre of me:)

Picture of Patt.

This was a cool place to go. It was so worth going there.

I just love these guys. See the one waving at me!

Marching out to get some food.

Above is a picture when we were playing miniature golf.

Playing miniature golf.   One of the last holes went through a “cave” and this was a picture looking outside from the cave.  I just thought it was cool.

This picture is from a bathroom at an ice cream store. I just had to take a picture of the wall!!!

Patt makes friends with a sweet wolf. I would have brought this guy home.

The beach in Destin.

Patt makes another friend, and no way would I bring this guy home!

The beach in PC.

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So happy to be home!

Posted by Dawn on June 30, 2006

First of all for the Saturday Photo Hunt I’m going through my pictures trying to find a picutre other than a motorcycle to post.  If I’m able I’m going to run to my father in laws and take a picture of his classic car, if not that means he’s gone, or I haven’t pulled myself away from unpacking.

Second to anyone that came by last week and I didn’t make it to see your photo I am so sorry.  I had a family emergency Saturday and didn’t get on the computer much before leaving.  In time maybe I’ll be able to write about what’s going on, but for now I think it’s best not to.  If you pray I will ask that you just keep my family in your prayers.  All of us and that would be most appreciated.  I almost didn’t go on vacation, but after talking to my family we decided there wasn’t much I could do at the time so we went.

Now where did we end up.  We left early Monday morning and drove until we got to Destin, Florida.  We stayed there 2 nights then drove down to Panama City for 2 nights then drove home this afternoon.  We had so much fun.  Patt didn’t complain about me being on the phone with my family the whole trip, he was fun, supportive, and let me have the credit cards and let me do what I wanted to.  Now I’m not much of a shopper, but I have to admit, I did some shopping.  We went to a few shows, found out I’m not a beach person unless it’s not hot.  Oh my goodness I can’t believe how hot it is.  Wasn’t it just a few days ago I was talking about being cold?  We did the beach thing early in the morning and late in the evening, so my poor ole legs are still just as white as they were when we left. 

So lets see, there was a new tattoo for someone, fun with the fish, an alligator, a wolf, a monkey, some turtles that came home with us, hunting for shells, golf world and lots of food!  Found out there is not helmet law in Florida and it blew my mind seeing everyone riding motorcyles without helmets.  At this one store this “kid” got off a street bike, no helmet and no shoes!  I just looked at Patt and said don’t ever let me see you without a helmet on!!!

Ok more about vacation later.  If I don’t post a picture tomorrow please forgive me!  I will however do my best to come see you guys and again so sorry I didn’t make it to everyone last week.  I hope things will be back to normal soon!

Now it’s off to sleep in my bed and curl up with my little Ruby girl.  I missed my dog 🙂

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Thirteen Thursday

Posted by Dawn on June 21, 2006

 

(Thanks Denise for the Thirteen Thursday Banner!)

Thirteen Things I'm Looking Forward to after Friday!

1.  Other than the fact that it is Friday after all, but as of around 4:00 or when I decide to hit the door running, I'm on vacation until July 5th!  Yippie Yeah, Dawn is doing the HAPPY DANCE!

2.  I finally got my new helmet to go riding with Patt and have yet to go riding, so I plan on riding some Friday night.  Saturday and Sunday I'll let him ride without me since he'll be leaving his toy for a few days.

3.  Saturday I'm off to Utica for a wedding shower.  It'll be nice to see people I use to go to church with.

4.  Sunday after we get out of church and while Patt is riding I'm packing our clothes and some sunscreen.

5.  Monday moring we're off to who knows where.  We are getting in the car and heading toward Flordia.  We're going to just see where the road takes us and have some fun!

6.  I'm looking forward to us — ok Patt playing golf, but I do love to drive the golf cart.  I love golf and we both have a blast while we're out on the green. 

7.  I can't wait to sit out on the beach and just enjoy listening to the waves and walking on the beach.  I love to walk on the beach at night.

8.  No cooking, no cleaning, no making the bed, no getting up 2 or 3 times a night to let Ruby out!

9.  NO WORK!!! No case mangers asking stupid questions, no e-mails with stupid questions, no case manager supervisor that gets on my nevers, no one griping about this or that, no phone calls, no Dawn can you do this or why did they deny my billing, no work 🙂

10. I'm looking forward to spending time with Patt.  It's strange we see each other every day, but it's just something about getting out of town, plus if he takes a job he's been offered I won't see much of him in the next few months.  So, I'm going to enjoy this time.

11. Shopping!  Even though I'm not a big shopper, I'm looking forward to looking for a gift for my MIL.  Her birthday was Monday and I haven't found the right gift for her, so maybe I'll find the perfect gift as we travel.

12. When we get back we'll still have several days before it's back to work, so Monday the 3rd my MIL and I are going out to eat and have girl talk just the two of us.  I'm blessed to have a great MIL! 

13. I'm looking forward to spending time with our families and friends and cooking out for the 4th of July.  We're planning a group day and everyone will come back to our house for a cookout. 

Bonus since I won't be here next week for TT….

I'm looking forward to meeting our friends new baby!  They are home and rested and ready for company so I can't wait to meet this adorable gift God has given our friends.

I'm looking forward to catching up on some reading.  I may actually get to read a book while I'm off work!

I'm looking forward to taking pictures of something other than motorcycles.  Sorry sweetie 😦

I'm looking forward to moving my blog to it's own home.  I'm in the process of researching and trying to decide on the perfect name and design so I can't wait to have my own home!

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Reflections in the mirror.

Posted by Dawn on June 21, 2006

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This is the hard one to write.  It's the tell all.  Wish I could say what I'm about to write is nice things, but since it's the truth, well I'm just say that I'm glad I no longer see me the way I use to.

The one thing I really like about me is my blue eyes.  I'm told I got them from my grandfather, along with his temper.  Well the pretty blue eyes aren't so pretty when there's a long stream of black eyeliner running down my face, my eyes are swollen from crying, and my nose is red.  Yep almost as red as that famous reindeer we've heard about.  You betcha I'm trying to be funny no joke this is hard.

I remember looking at the mirror and would take my lipstick and write all over my reflection.  Things like I hate you, go away just to name a couple.  I'd look so deep into my eyes searching for some form of happiness, a life I'd dream of.  I really didn't like me, but you'd never know that from the way I acted in public. 

I had a good life in Baton Rouge.  I just wasn't happy.  Every time I'd get depressed I'd redo my make up, and put on a show.  The perfect couple.  No one but my best friend knew I wasn't happy.  I think I still put on some sort of act for her too.  I had a nice house, went on all kinds of trips, bought what I wanted when I wanted, had everything I wanted.  Still the world saw me talking about the latest trip, or the upcoming trip.  Always something.

What they never saw was the me that found a safe place in my closet where I'd cry and wonder why.  Why did I have to buy the happiness for a few moments.  I thought if I move back to Mississippi, be closer to my family, then I'll be happy. 

Guess what?  We have mirrors in Mississippi too and the reflection was the same.  Guess this is about the time I had that anxiety attack.  Decided it was time to admit I wasn't in love with my husband, my heart longed for something I lost many years ago.  It was time to deal with my past.  Then and only then could I be happy.

When everyone found out I wanted a divorce you'd think I'd done the most horrible of horrible things.  I was giving up my security to follow my heart.  There was something I had to face.  I had to face the monster I saw in the mirror.  It didn't happen over night, it didn't happen in a few months.  It's taken a few years and it's still in progress.

I had to face the hard facts.

Dawn is/thinks

  • a snob
  • she's better than everyone else
  • judges others
  • moody
  • a guilt player
  • someone who likes the attention of being depressed
  • likes to have things her way
  • likes to be in control
  • will fight just to fight
  • likes to play mind games
  • selfish

Ok I'll stop there.  It's no fun.  I can say that over this past year I've really worked on my list.  Wasn't fun either.  It took so much to admit these things much less to act on chainging them.  It's taken the support of Patt and his honesty to love me enough to say get over yourself.  Stop it.  Give people a chance.  Try new things.  If you don't like who you are then you are the only one that can change that. 

I don't think I'm the same person anymore.  I've learned that by being that person I've missed out on some really good friendships and experiences.  Like I said it's a work in progress with my list, and most days when I look in the mirror I see someone I love, someone Patt loves, and most important, someone God loves.  Mistakes, wrong paths, running away, God still loves Dawn.  I'm seeing my blue eyes now instead of the black eyeliner running down my face. 

Next time when and why I decided meds was not what I wanted…..

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Guilty because your bike is blue and white???

Posted by Dawn on June 12, 2006

Thanks for all the well wishes! I’m still alive! Feeling better, but I still don’t have all my energy back. I did what I needed to do over the weekend and that was rest. I fought it at first. My new helmet was suppose to be in Friday (now it’ll be Wednesday) and I wanted to ride this weekend. Insteed Friday night I took my meds and slept. Got up early Saturday (thanks new neighbors to be) went ahead and went to the grocery store. Came home and pretty much was lazy. During energy spurts I’d do a few things needed to be done, but pretty much took it easy. Sunday went to church had a lunch fund raiser for our youth then I was surpised, the group was going to some race track and Patt decided not to go, instead we went to the movies! Alone just the two of us. Nice surpise to spend the afternoon with Patt!

Now the real fun was what happened to Patt Saturday afternoon has now made me loose faith in our police officers. I can’t have repect for somone who treated Patt the way he did. Saturday Patt and 2 other guys were riding. They were downtown, no cutting up, not spending. It is well know to be on your very best behavior in this town and Patt has been told after two tickets he’d better be good or else! The are going down a street and a police office passes them, turns around and follows them for a little while. No problem they were not doing anything wrong or so they thought. He finally stops them, then calls Patt to the back away from the other guys and this is what happened.

Officer: Why did you out run me?

Patt: I didn’t out run you. When was this?

Officer: About a month ago on a rainny night.

Patt: Sir, I don’t ride my bike in the rain.

Officer: Then who did you lend your bike to?

Patt: I don’t lend my bike to anyone it wasn’t me. I’m not the only one with a blue and white bike.

Officer: (get’s ticket book out)

Patt: Why are you giving me a ticket?

Officer: Your tag is improperly displayed.

Patt: Can I go home and fix it. I’ve been stopped before and no one has said anything about my tag.

Officer: Don’t get an attitude with me.

Patt: I’m not, but you already had me guilty when you pulled me over. I didn’t out run you. I’ve got my endorsement, have insurance, tag in date, can’t you give me a break.

Officer: I’m about you throw you in jail, then you’ll have to bond out, get your bike out and still pay for the ticket.

(By now Patt does have an attitude I think)

Officer: (Gives Patt the ticket) there’s a number on there if you have any questions.

Patt: I’ll call and ask them if I have this taken care of will they let the ticket go.

Officer: (takes ticket back and writes NO HELP on it)

The officer now goes to our friend who’s bike is out of state since last August, tag placed just like Patt’s, no endoresement, and no insurance. Gives him a ticket only for the tag and endoresment and tells him in front of Patt if he gets the two things fix he’ll tear the ticket up.

By now Patt just gets on his bike and leaves.

Ok my husband can be a pain in the rear end, a jerk at times, but one thing he does not do and that’s lie. He’s gotton two tickets one for going 68 in a 55 which on a bike is slow…..and one for doing a wheelie in town. He did it got to pay the ticket, but to get a ticket because the officer assumed he out ran him because a guy on a blue and white bike did. Wrong!

Back several, several months ago I’m on the cell phone talking to my mom and see this guy coming up and I tell mom, there’s Patt, what’s he doing in town. I swear this is Patt, then he gets beside me and it’s NOT Patt. Now if his own wife can’t tell for sure how can a cope on a dark, rainny night. Now I can tell Patt, he’s the only one with a jacket like he has. But not then.

Ok it’s Monday off to get some work done!

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Getting Ready

Posted by Dawn on June 9, 2006

Since blogger wants to act up all the time I think I may move here so I'm getting ready!

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