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Finally…..

Posted by Dawn on July 30, 2006

Ok before I get to something I’ve been wanting to share with you and wouldn’t until it was a done deal….no I’m not preggie I wish…..but it’s something I’ve been wanting to do and today I did it….

 First.  I was heartbroken at church.  The way we were treated made me want to leave and we got up and left church this morning.  No biggie you’d think.  See we are in a small church.  People sit in the same place every week.  Well we get there and Patt goes in while I take a pie I made (5th Sunday we eat after church) into the kitchen.  I go into the church and Patt is in a different spot.  Someone was sitting where we sit.  No biggie we sit in another spot.  Church was about to start, no one was sitting in the pew, then the people that usually sit there came in and comments were made all around us about us sitting in their pew, then the looks of daggers started.  I just wanted to cry.  People were whispering about where we were sitting!!!!  I felt so bad for getting someone’s pew I just wanted to crawl under a rock.  I mean ugly looks for them, so we left.  I don’t feel like we belong there to begin with and you know you shouldn’t care where people sit, the important thing is people are there.  For 5 years Patt has sat in the same place, but he didn’t make comments to the people on “our” pew, he just sat somewhere else.  Big mistake I guess….

 Ok now my news.  MY BLOG IS MOVING TO A NEW HOME SWEET HOME!!!!  I’ve wanted to do this since I was with blogger and they started having problems and I moved to wordpress.  I love wordpress but with the free site you are limited so as of now I have a new home and a new address. 

I know I’m tired of moving too and I know you guys have moved my link so many times, but this is the last time!!!  I have my own home now!!! yeahhhhhh Plus it’s paid for and I’m paying for a new makeover so this new place is my new home.

You are invited to the new home of Simply Dawn Marie……..

http://simplydawnmarie.com/ 

See ya over there!  I hope, fingers crossed, toes crossed, legs crossed you name it, I just hope you’ll visit me!!!!

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TGIF

Posted by Dawn on July 28, 2006

It’s been a wild and crazy week.  So glad it’s FRIDAY!!!  There’s been a lot going on at work, I’m working on something I’ve wanted to do for a while and will be telling you more about that maybe next week, and I’ve just been doing some soul searching.  Even though it’s been a crazy week, I feel good about things going on.  Maybe, just maybe, fingers crossed, toes crossed, some problems here at the office are coming to light and maybe something good will come out of it.  I don’t mind the extra work, and going beyond–the call of duty–just take care of the problems….please!

 So which was my favorite picutre from the wedding.  Well all of them but I do have a few favvvvys….

Yep this is it.  How could you not just love that look on his face?

 

This is another one.  Mrs. “H” was mine and my brothers Sunday School teacher when we were kids, then she got to teach Hunter.  Wow, how cool is that to teach a child, then teach their child.  I just love this lady.  She’s a true example of how a Christian lady shoudl be.  Thanks Mrs “H” for always living by example!

Have a great weekend everyone!!!!

 

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A few thoughts

Posted by Dawn on July 26, 2006

Yesterday I spent the day trying to get sypware off my computer at work.  The IT person came up here and had to update all my software, and removed all the problems.  It was a long day.  This started Monday afternoon, she told to just run all my spyware programs, well that didn’t do it, then she was in a meeting yesterday morning, so finally at lunch she got me all fixed!  Now I’ve got some major catch up to do with my work.

 Last night I spent a few hours uploading a few pics from the wedding.  I’ll post a few here, but if you’d like to see more of them you can go to my photo blog to see more of them.  I think I did an ok job with the pics.

 Above is what Hunter thinks of having to stand up there.

This is my brother Stacey, his wife Jennifer and anyone who comes here knows that the little guy in my sweet (yet spoiled) nephew Hunter.  He’s holding one of his toys he got for being good during the wedding.

Your hair smells good. 

My favorite one is on my Photo Blog.  Can you pick it out. 

Busy day, I hope to catch up on everyone’s blogs soon, but I have to get some work done.  I just got a call and now it’s off to fix a problem, that if the cm supervisor would have done her job to begin with, there would be no problem!!!

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chop chop

Posted by Dawn on July 19, 2006

I did it.  It’s been a gradual process since my hair use to be in the middle of my back and it’s been slowly getting shorter, but yesterday I just did it!  It’s gone    😮

My hair maybe sits right on my shoulder.  So for me that is major short!  I was sitting in the chair yesterday and Patt walks in and was like don’t do it, but I had to.  It is so hot and I’m tired of wearing a pony tail.  I mean yesterday we had “important” people here for a luncheon and I’m bouncing around with a pony tail.  Very unprofessional.  It’s bad enough I wear dresses with sandals, but we are in the Mississippi and it’s hot right now!  So I cut it off  but I do admit I do like it longer and like I told Patt I’ll start growing it back out to have long hair for the winter but it’s just too hot right now to deal with long hair.  I don’t like some of the crazy things he does with facial hair, but I deal with it.

It’s been really hot and yesterday we had a bad thunderstorm.  It knocked the power out for about 2 hours and I thought Patt was about to break out the generator.  After Katrina and being without power for a week the thought of no electricity is scary around here.  But I did manager to talk Patt into waiting since it was only a thunderstorm.  So we sat outside and watched the rain.

I’m starting to get everything together for the cookout this weekend for his birthday.  I’ve ordered the cake which I hope he likes.  It’s chocolate with a cream filing, butter-cream icing and they will be able to put a picture of his motorcycle on it.  I’ve got to pick up all the fixings for the cookout and get everything done by Friday night since I’ll be at a wedding Saturday afternoon.  It’s fun yet sad when people you can remember being born get married.  My nephew Hunter is the ring bearer and is going to be so cute in his little tux 😎  So I’m excited about Saturday and I just love seeing everyone I use to go to church with.  Weird thing is I love the people in Utica, I just don’t want to live there. 

Off to get some work done and it’s about time for another cup of coffee.  Hope you have a good Wednesday!!!!

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will I do it?

Posted by Dawn on July 18, 2006

I’m at that crossroad again.  Yep, it’s hair cut time once again.  I got brave last time and cut some lenght off, so what will I do today?  To be honest, I have no clue.  I’ll probably go in tell Wendy to do what she thinks best, even if it’s short.  My hair and nope I didn’t ask for any opinion this morning.  Just reminded Patt I may be in a little after normal time, since I’ve got an apt today.  Right now it’s just below my shoulders but gee it’s so hot I think I want something fun and sassy.  I’m kind of feeling prissy right now 😎

It’s nuts around here today.  That’s nothing new, but there’s a big lunch meeting and the mayor’s bodyguards are in the kitchen and so I’m like can I please get through.

Today is a special today.  It’s my friends Jaimi’s 44th b’day and it would have been my Aunt Pasty’s birthday.  I called Jaimi this morning and had a long chat.  I miss my friends from Baton Rouge, they have such a special place in my heart and even though Jaimi and I could get on each others never we have a very special friendship.  She was suprised I remembered.  Duh, hello, for 7 years, every year it was my honor and joy to make her birthday ever so exciting…  I really had fun making sure everyone knew it was her birthday and playing tricks on her.  We had to have fun and love each other.  We all worked so close together the laughter was our relief.

It would have also been my mom’s sister b’day.  She died when I was 7 but I can still remember her like it was yesterday.  Being the first child born in the family has major benefits.  This is why I am so spoiled…. why I still think I’m the princess…I was treated like I was.  I had the whole family wrapped around my little finger.  Now with my niece Samantha everyone will tell me she is me all over again, she looks like me and acts like me.  Her nickname is Princess and I am trainning her very well 😉 And like me having Aunt Pasty wrapped around my finger, Samantha has her Aunt Dawn wrapped around her finger.  I miss my Aunt Pasty.  It was so unfair for someone so wonderful to be gone so early.  She loved God, Loved loved loved her family, she taught my mission friends class in church, she loved to play the piano (that’s why I took lessons, I wanted to be like her) she liked to hunt she was so amazing.  She was so special God needed her in heaven, but before he took her home, He made sure she touched my heart.

Ok before I get sappy again, I’ve been doing good, so let’s stay happy and cheerful.  I’ve got 3 hours to decide on chop chop or trim trim….  Then I may or may not go riding with Patt tonight.  There’s so much to do to get ready for the cookout this weekend.  I’m slowly learning not to stress about my house to so neat and perfect before everyone gets there because once people start showing up, my poor ole house is just not the same. 

 Have a great Tuesday everyone. 

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Starting to feel like me again.

Posted by Dawn on July 17, 2006

Today I didn’t let work stress me out

I ordered Patt’s birthday cake and found a place that makes the cake he likes and they can put a picture of his bike on it.

Invited some of Patt’s friends out for a cookout Saturday. 

Invited some of my friends out for a cookout Saturday.

I smiled.

I laughed.

I enjoyed going to my friends office and just talking about the weekend.

I enjoyed the talk of a possibility of maybe a girls cruise with some friends.  We’ve talked about it for years and we really want to do it.

I cooked dinner and sat at the table and enjoyed talking to Patt.

I talked to Hunter on the phone which always makes me smile.

We played with Ruby.

We’ve laughed a lot this afternoon.

I’m about to go wake him from the couch and tell him it’s bed time.

It’s been great to feel happy today.

I’m thankful for all the wonderful comments from you guys.  This mood I’ve been in is a combination of a lot going on all around me.  I’ve been worried about someone I love more than life….my brother and over the past few weeks I’ve become friends with my brother.  Who would have ever guessed we’d be so close.  I don’t want to go into details why my brother has been on my mind and why I’ve been worried.  That’s his story, but I can tell you this I am so proud of him.  He’ s a good little brother who grown into a wonderful guy. 

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A whole lot of talking

Posted by Dawn on July 17, 2006

The weekend was pretty much a whole lot of talking and I hope a deal we can both deal with it. 

 We finally had the heart to heart about his friends girlfriend that’s going to have a baby and why I am so upset about them being at our house.  Even though I do believe he understands how much I hurt I think when they come by he will keep them away from me as much as possible.  I don’t care for them to begin with and I don’t agree with their lifestyle and I won’t pretend I do.  I have in the past tried to talk to them, they have asked our advice and do the opposite and it is their life, but I do have the choice of being a part of it which I don’t want any of it.  I will not be ugly to them, I will just keep busy in the house when they stop by.

Another biggie this weekend, Saturday night Patt got yet another ticket.  I’m tired of his hobby costing us money and I made him feel really bad which is not what I wanted.  I just wanted him to understand how I felt giving things up, not doing things with my friends trying to save to start a family, pay off some bills, yet it seems like everytime he goes out with his friends, it’s costing us big time.  So I’m getting my life with my friends back.  I will start going out to eat like I use to, I’ll start going back out again once a month when we have our monthly meetings where everyone from all the districts are in town and I’m not asking permission.  If we can find the money for tickets we can find the money for me too.  I will ride with him on Tuesday nights, Friday night goes back to being our date night and no motorcyle dealings and he can ride all he wants on Sat and Sunday unless there’s a family deal we need to go to.  I won’t get upset with him coming in at 2 a.m. anymore, I just want my Friday night back just the two of us.  Time will tell…..

I stil feel a gap between us.  I don’t know if it’s me or it it’s really there.  I’m still mad at him.  I am not asking him not to do things with his friends, I’m just asking for him to see what I’ve done for us, and I just want him to understand that going out and riding motorcyles until 2-3 in the morning is getting him in trouble.  This is the time frame he gets tickets, they are out and looking for them.  So who knows.  I’m trying to feel better:)

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I’ve got Proof this time….

Posted by Dawn on July 14, 2006

This cute little girl has been trying to get me in trouble this week, but I’ve got proof today!!!

Tuesday Patt call me when he went home for lunch.  First thing out of his mouth….guess what you forgot to do this morning????  I’m thinking what have I done this time?  He proceeds to tell me I forgot to put Ruby in the kitchen.  Said she was under the covers asleep on our bed.  I was like noooo I didn’t.  He thinks the gate we put in the hall is too high for her to jump.  I’m sure I didn’t forget…I always play with her before I leave.  So I drop it.

Yesterday…same thing and I’m like no way no how did I forgot to put Ruby in the kitchen.  I let her out when he left for work and did not let her back in until I was ready to leave and by then everything was done, gates put up and all.  I played with her like I always do.  Still last night he’s like no way can she jump over the gate.  I’m like well someone is coming in while we are gone.  I’m not that crazy….  Well I guess the ghost is playing with Ruby while we are gone.

 He just called from the house.  I’m like no way I have proof this time.  I took a picuture of that dog  in front of the gate before I left this morning….

haha I have proof this time.  Can’t blame me:)

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At least it’s Friday

Posted by Dawn on July 14, 2006

I still don’t know how I’m really feeling.  There’s so much going on everywhere I turn and I’m just tired of pretending!!!  For now I’m all smiles on the outside but in truth the inside is really hurting.  I can’t be me, I’m not suppose to have a voice and it really doesn’t matter what my heart feels.  Let’s make sure we don’t hurt any friends feelings, who cares that crap I don’t like is being said and going on in my home, I’m just suppose to go with the flow regardless how I believe and deal with it. 

 I will say one thing that is bothering me real bad, is one of Patt’s friends girlfriend is going to have a baby.  She just turned 17 and has no clue how to take care of herself much less a baby.  She comes to our house all messed up on who knows what, smoking and I’m suppose to be ok with this.  They talk about using the system which I am not ok with.  Get a job, get some insurance at least try to do something instead of spending your time thinking of ways to use the system.  I know at times everyone needs help, but at least try and not make comments on how it’s the state of MS place to help you.  This girl has to be told when to take a bath, shave her legs, she has no clue how to cook, nothing and yet she and her boyfriend who has no clue either on life are going to be responsible for a child????

Why does this hurt so bad?  Because I want a family so bad.  It breaks my heart.  For real guys.  I’d do anything if Patt was ready to start a family, but he’s too busy having fun with his kid friends that by the time he’s through playing it will be too late for us.  So now I have to be in my home and witness crap that makes my heart hurt so bad it’s thrown me into depression and Patt does not want me to say anything b/c it will hurt their feelings?  What about mine.  I’m his wife what about my feelings?  We are talking about maybe at the end of the year trying to have a family.  Wednesday I went for my yearly check up.  I talked in detail with my doctor.  What I need to be doing now, where should my weight be, vitiams, eating, lifestyle, everything I could think of.  Just to do everything I can to help with our child being healthly.  Then to witness this stuff and listen to the comments and I’m just suppose to deal with it.  In my home???  This is causing major problems for us.  It scares me….  

Then on top of that, family things, work issues, I just wish my mind and heart didn’t have to hurt in this.  Sometimes I wish I didn’t care so much, then maybe I wouldn’t hurt… 

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The weekend

Posted by Dawn on July 10, 2006

We are having sever problems today and I just wrote a nice long post, and lost it, so here is the short and sweet of it.

Great weekend.  Busy weekend.  We had Puckett Day in our town and that afternoon my nephew Hunter’s birthday party.

This is called “Well, If this is the only was I can get away with it”.  Patt got a ticket from a Puckett police for doing this on his GSX-R, so he really enjoyed doing this in front of all of them.  This is not the police officer that gave him the ticket.  This guy loved the picture he asked me to email it to him and gave me permission to post his picutre on the website.  The parade was a blast.  Had lots of fun.

My father in law rode his antique car and won a prize!

We ate hamburgers, had some watermellon, then it was off to Utica for my nephew’s birthday party.  The party turned out really nice, the kids had a blast and we ate more hamburgers!  Couldn’t wait to get home since we’d had a long day, but it was worth all the fun.

 More later, must get to work.  Hope you had a great weekend too!

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